There Is No Arizona

This morning on my way to meet my chemistry tutor, the song There Is No Arizona by Jamie O'Neil came on.  It's a great song and I've caught myself humming it throughout the day, but have you ever really listened to it?  I don't mean listen and sing along, but let the words seep into your mind and touch your heart.  Yea, me neither.  But today I did.

It all came together, made sense and really hit home.  I've known for years that there was no Arizona, that his lies could more than fill up the Grand Canyon, that the dreams he sold me don't exist.  Due to recent events, I've been forced to truly realize all of these things.  No more pretending, no more forgetting or tucking away the feelings.  There truly is NO ARIZONA! For the first time in two years I realize I can let go.  It was ok to give all I had, it wasn't ok to be dependent.  But it's ok, I'm ok, and you know what?  To Heck with Arizona!  There are 49 other states available to me in a year when I graduate, and I plan on visiting quite a few of them.  But don't you know the old AZ won't be one of them :)  I'll make my own new and better life!

"There Is No Arizona"

He promised her a new and better life, out in Arizona
Underneath the blue never ending sky, swore that he was gonna
Get things in order, he'd send for her
When he left her behind, it never crossed her mind

There is no Arizona
No Painted Desert, no Sedona
If there was a Grand Canyon
She could fill it up with the lies he's told her
But they don't exist, those dreams he sold her
She'll wake up and find
There is no Arizona

She got a postcard with no return address, postmarked Tombstone
It said "I don't know where I'm goin' next but when I do
I'll let you know"
May, June, July, she wonders why
She's still waiting, she'll keep waiting 'cause

There is no Arizona
No Painted Desert, no Sedona
If there was a Grand Canyon
She could fill it up with the lies he's told her
But they don't exist, those dreams he sold her
She'll wake up and find
There is no Arizona

Each day the sun sets into the west
Her heart sinks lower in her chest and
Friends keep asking when she's going
Finally she tells them don't you know

There is no Arizona
No Painted Desert, no Sedona
If there was a Grand Canyon
She could fill it up with the lies he's told her
But they don't exist, those dreams he sold her
She'll wake up and find
There is no Arizona

He promised her a new and better life, out in Arizona 

 

 

XO Loves,

 

 

Me